You haven’t felt this way in longer than you can remember. You told yourself that you wouldn’t allow uncertainty or doubt to affect the decisions you make. You’d insist on playing it safe; make the right choice, and the right choice always entailed being confident it was the correct one.
That confidence you have no longer applies here. Your emotions get the better of you. The moment you start gaining some ground, you intentionally shoot yourself in the foot because fear somehow convinced you that it was only a matter of time before you failed. You’d much rather fall from the third floor than the penthouse, so you call it quits early before you’ve invested more of yourself. You stay close to the ground because that’s where you’re in control, that’s where you’re safe.
But you know better than that. At least, you should. Because the funny thing about staying on the ground level is that while there are no risks involved, there isn’t any excitement either. It stays the same. You know if you continue to keep your feet on the ground you’ll never get the results you want. You understand that the few moments you’ve ever felt alive in the time you’ve been on this earth were the moments you decided to leave the area you’re most comfortable.
You don’t know what will happen in the future. You don’t know if everything will work out in your favor. There isn’t a guarantee you won’t get hurt along the way. But you take the risk anyway, because to you it’s worth it.
You just hope it isn’t too late.
darylkris 