For as long as I can remember, I’ve spent most of my nights during vacations either playing video games, watching Family Guy, or whatever else on TV. It’s sort of depressing to know that this is the last Winter break I’ll ever have, and that I’ll never have another Summer vacation. I’ve never worked a day in my life, and I mooch off of my parents. If it weren’t for nursing school, I’d be the definition of a slacker. Fortunately, I’m only a slight slacker.
To be honest, I have mixed feelings about 2011. Do I really want to get thrown into the real world? Kaiser’s got me by the balls and needs me to pass the boards by June (I think), or else I need to come up with 20k to pay their asses back. But before I even think about that, I need to graduate. I guess the only goal I’ve ever had since getting into MSMC was to graduate and pay my parents back. It’s no secret that I’ve never really wanted to be a nurse, and I can’t truthfully say that I love it now, but it’s slowly growing on me. Being able to help other people is a little fulfilling for a slacker like myself, and it’s a fun job I suppose.
However, as graduation becomes closer and closer, I’ve seriously began to shit bricks about my actual ability to become a nurse. It’s no secret that I’ve half-assed my way through this school. Procrastination is a way of life for me, I don’t know if that’s just me, my generation, or because of St. Gens, but it’s really the only way I know how to get through school. Unfortunately, procrastination has equated to about the shittiest retention rate known to mankind. It’s a pretty fucked up thought to even think of someone like me having responsibility over other people’s lives.
Good thing I plan on getting through this year the same way I’ve gotten through every year: with all the optimism a man could need and a giant fuck you to responsibility.
Seriously, I know we can do this. And I guess more importantly, I know I can do this.
-darylkris
